Which i know seems like a kind of wordy way to ask that, but i wanted to get “want” in there. And i made it a poll for some reason. Ok bye
Oh ya and i put it up here just to mess with AB, bc i was bored
Move it if you want lol
Oh ya so, im not much on competition and the whole winner/loser paradigm, and i have this like idk ADD thing maybe? where im unconsciously hurrying to the next moment, mentally, almost all the time. There’s an element of impatience to it, and its just this weird, asperger’s acid trip of a state of mind that i often have with me, which is really only a problem sometimes around…well, pretty much most of the rest of the human race lol, at least for more than ten minutes or so. Im told i radiate waves, although it strikes me as just generally unhealthy, and i cant tell if theyre being complementary or critical. Limiting high glycemic food seems to help; oh look, a squirrel
Anyway, oh ya, the competition winner/loser thing, where that comes in, i remember now
So i play online tournament poker, mostly with nits, for like freerolls or maybe a dollar or two, and i only play one game at a time (boring) rather than four or five (stimulating), and it can be pure torture to me to have to sit there waiting to act, esp if i have a good hand. Hard to just be there now and content in the moment iow.
Now, this may be a completely frivolous use of my time, and since im usually smoking dope too (take care of your endocannabinoid system and it will take care of you, i always say) you could even say hopelessly depraved, and really not much about overcoming at all, and you would likely be right. So, what was my point? I forgot. Ok, so nevermind.
No, wait! You could overcome whatever and however seems best to you; oh ya, that was it
Oh ya and i put it up here just to mess with AB, bc i was bored
Move it if you want lol
Oh ya so, im not much on competition and the whole winner/loser paradigm, and i have this like idk ADD thing maybe? where im unconsciously hurrying to the next moment, mentally, almost all the time. There’s an element of impatience to it, and its just this weird, asperger’s acid trip of a state of mind that i often have with me, which is really only a problem sometimes around…well, pretty much most of the rest of the human race lol, at least for more than ten minutes or so. Im told i radiate waves, although it strikes me as just generally unhealthy, and i cant tell if theyre being complementary or critical. Limiting high glycemic food seems to help; oh look, a squirrel
Anyway, oh ya, the competition winner/loser thing, where that comes in, i remember now
So i play online tournament poker, mostly with nits, for like freerolls or maybe a dollar or two, and i only play one game at a time (boring) rather than four or five (stimulating), and it can be pure torture to me to have to sit there waiting to act, esp if i have a good hand. Hard to just be there now and content in the moment iow.
Now, this may be a completely frivolous use of my time, and since im usually smoking dope too (take care of your endocannabinoid system and it will take care of you, i always say) you could even say hopelessly depraved, and really not much about overcoming at all, and you would likely be right. So, what was my point? I forgot. Ok, so nevermind.
No, wait! You could overcome whatever and however seems best to you; oh ya, that was it
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